I have suffered from insomnia for the last year, and I mean suffered. When I can’t sleep, I literally feel like a zombie. I’m just shuffling through the day, hoping to make it through, but not having a positive impact on anyone around me, not really enjoying being alive. From sleep flows everything.
I’ve had to rethink my daily priorities as a result, because above all, I want to be enjoying my life. I want to be truly engaging with it and with everyone I meet. I don’t think just getting by day to day is cutting it anymore.
So here are my personal priorities in order of importance:
- Healthy eating
- Creativity — reading and writing
- Messing around on the Internet
Well, I’m sure there are some items between numbers 4 and 5.
I did leave family off this list, even though they are often my number-one priority. That’s because this list reflects me taking care of myself, which I have to do in order to be able to take care of my family. It’s now become a cliche, but it’s true that you have to put the oxygen mask yourself before you can put it on your loved one.
I’ve been reading a book called The Happiness Project for my book club, and while at first I was skeptical, I have been inspired by some of the ideas in the book. Striving for personal happiness is a laudable goal. The author of the book set a goal to write a novel in a month, not for possible publication, but just for herself, just to do it. I think I’m going to emulate her. I know next month is National Novel Writing Month, but I’m not sure how I’m going to take care of a toddler and write a novel at the same time, especially a toddler who no longer naps. I may have to put this project on hold until the new year, when he goes to preschool. But I do want to see if I can do it.
Over the years, I’ve lost the ability to be creative just for the joy of it, to write just for fun. When we’re kids, we’re all kinds of creative all day long, and not because we expect to get paid or get famous. We just love to do it. I want to recapture that feeling.